I Am Mother

That is my name
That is my job
That is my purpose
I once had dreams
Goals, hopes for a happy life
Things I wanted to do
I was once young
I was once a woman
Now I am Mother

My children flourish
They grow so quickly
I adore them
I would never want to be without them
But they are all I know
The only true relationships I have
I was once well spoken
I was once content
Now I am Mother

I am not a woman with children
It is no longer a title
I have become this title
It is all I am
Not friend
Not lover
Not confidant
Not human being
I am only Mother

How do I go back?
How do I find that girl?
She was lost over the years
Murdered by bitterness
By sarcasm and harsh words
Ignored until she disappeared
She knew happiness and hope
But she is gone forever
Now I am Mother

Who will I be when the children are gone?
When they are grown
With lives of their own
Who will I become?
Will I find real relationships?
Or will I continue to be alone
And lonely
Will I only ever be
Mother?

Copyright © 2016 Ashley Uzzell

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Go to Sleep

I tell you it will be okay
I tell you everything is fine
This is how your mother
Can ease your worried mind

I rub your back gently
In tiny circles up and down
I tell daring tales of pirates
Funny stories about clowns

I reassure you with my smile
I know you aren’t old enough to see
This curving of my lips is fake
There is deception in my glee

Those loud bangs are thunder
The flashes, lightning strikes
The screams are cheers of joy
Everything is all right

Go to sleep, little one
Find pleasant dreams to drown out the noise
Let us pretend there will be a tomorrow
Hide the horrors with simple joys

Copyright © 2016 Ashley Uzzell